When leaving the hospital after our 10 days there, we stayed at Jeff’s parents’ house because it was just a few miles away and he still wasn’t ready to ride a car very far. On May 2nd, we finally got to go home to our apartment. My mom and friend Natalie had gone in and cleaned our apartment while we were gone, what a blessing that was to come home to a clean apartment!! Speaking of blessings, our sweet Sunday school class blessed us with meals and company when they would bring it!
On the 4th, Jeff got to make it to church and he actually walked more than he had while he was in the hospital! This was a huge deal and an answer to prayers!
On May 9th I had posted to facebook and ask friends to post encouraging messages and was flooded with love! It is so beautiful how the body of Christ comes together to support each other in good times and bad. This is something you will see me talk about a lot as I recall our journey (there’s some really amazing stories to come y’all!) and as I post about daily life, because it still happens so much!
Mother’s Day weekend Jeff’s mom took Jacob out to the store to buy me Mother’s Day gifts, and the boy did not disappoint. He knows me so well. Here is a picture of all he got me 🙂
I finally got to carve out some time with Jacob one on one. Jeff was still very weak, so he stayed with his mom & Jacob and I went out for lunch and just loved on each other. That sweet 7 year old even opened the door for me (he doesn’t do that as much anymore, need to get him back on track! Haha)!!
Then on actual Mother’s Day I got to go with my mom & Jacob to an Astros’ game! We had such a great time! I don’t remember the score or even who they played that day, but I remember the fun we had!
One thing I didn’t mention in my April blog is just how awesome of bosses I have. I had just started a new job weeks before Jeff went in to the hospital, and they let me have time off to be in the hospital with him and take care of him at home while we awaited answers. One day in May my boss had seen just how exhausted I was and insisted I take extra time on my lunch break to lie down and rest, something I hadn’t been getting much of at the time because of tending to Jeff’s needs. Looking back, oh how I had no idea how the end would come full circle with the late nights and lack of sleep.
On the 14th, I posted this image…
I needed to read that in that particular moment, and it is no accident that I needed to read it in this exact moment as well. I know you see me God! Thank you for the little things that show me you see me!
Later that day, my dear friend Sarah posted this to my wall
And once again, this is something I needed to see then AND right now. If you didn’t know the person I was before our cancer journey, you don’t fully know just how much the Lord has changed my heart over the years. I would not be the woman I am today had I not gone through the fire and learned many lessons in just letting go and letting God. As I walk through difficult circumstances right now that I would love to change, I know that this is a moment of God teaching me patience, trust, and increasing faith… Just like he did 3 years ago.
On the 17th Jacob and I went to the Strawberry Festival & had a day I will never forget! We got to ride in a helicopter, pigged out on strawberry shortcake (something he got to do this year, but I did not because I was being good on my 24 day challenge), Jacob ran around in this hamster wheel type ball on the water, but the best thing was, I was getting quality time with Jacob.
On the 20th, I posted this image
I don’t like it when people tell me God won’t give me more than I can handle, because that is a lie of misquoted scripture! 1 Corinthians 10:13 tells us:
“No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.”
“Beyond your ability”… Philippians 4:13 tells us “I can do all things through him who strengthens me.” ALL things… but the key is that it is through the strength of Christ. If you are not using the strength of Christ to combat the trials & temptations, you will likely fail… I know I would if it weren’t for the strength from Christ. If we simply believed that God would not give us more than we can handle on our own, then we start to question then why do people commit suicide, why do people end up homeless, why does depression happen? My friends, these are real things that happen every day (this is a result of a fallen, broken and sinful world), and to these I say that you can have hope in Jesus, that through the Holy Spirit, He will be with you. He can save you from committing suicide. If you become homeless, he will be with you on the street corner and even in those dark moments, you can find hope. If you fall into depression, cling to the Lord and pray for healing, which comes at different times & in all forms. Sometimes that’s healing without medication, sometimes it is with the aid of medication, therapy, etc., sometimes by simply being called home. One thing that is unchangeable in all circumstances is that the Lord will be with you through the Holy Spirit, and friends… I see it on a daily basis. I seriously get asked asked on a weekly basis how I get through these hard times. I will say it every time, it is not by my power, but by His! The verse also says the Lord will provide “the way of escape”, this comes in many forms as well, the Holy Spirit is one, sometimes it’s putting a person in your path in “the right place at the right time”, sometimes it’s a sign from the Lord (Oh the stories I have heard about people seeing the large cross at Sagemont church and how it has saved their lives… this is an example of a sign from the Lord), sometimes it is a song on the radio, it comes in many forms! There are escapes that the Lord provides!
Also on the same day, I had posted a picture of these amazing waffle cinnamon rolls (which now I am currently craving and must make when my diet is less restricted):
I wanted to share this little story because in the simplest way, its brought me joy. In that post I had made the joke that if anyone wanted to buy me a waffle iron I would appreciate that. My sweet friend Crystal offered up to me hers. Silly, I know, but it meant a lot to me then! And now my stomach is growling and I’m regretting looking at that picture. Moving on!
I don’t have it on my facebook to help me look back, but I’m pretty sure that sometime in the month of May was when we discovered that Jeff’s cancer was GIST, being told it was incurable and his life expectancy on increasing doses of chemo was about 15 more years was a very hard thing to take, being told that chemo would make us not be able to conceive, it hurt, but we trusted in God that He had a plan worked out. We decided that no matter what God’s plan was for our lives, we would do our best to live in a manor that would glorify God through the whole journey. I pray this is something those around us see happening. The next 3 years would be a roller coaster (that I can’t wait to share with you), and we just had to hold on for the ride.
And so ended the month of May.